1 John 3:1a – “Behold what manner of love the Father has bestowed on us, that we should be called children of God!”
Growing up without a father sure wasn’t easy. When I was a toddler, I perhaps didn’t even know I needed a father, but not having a father to teach me to ride a cycle or drop me to school on my first day or teach me how to shave or to drive the car sure are things I would have probably wanted a father to be doing for me. Almost all my friends had fathers to give them life lessons, teach them problem solving skills, be their moral and emotional support when they got their first bruises or their first heartbreaks, be it cheering for them on the sports days or just lending a listening ear to their child. They all probably felt quite safe having a manly figure to protect them. Personally I felt I needed a role model or a father figure I could look up to too.
It was not until 7 to 8 years ago when I had begun to seek God intentionally, I learnt that, in God; I have a Father. I knew from a young age that Christians addressed God – Father, but getting to know God more deeply & understanding that He adopted & bestowed immeasurable love upon me was not just pivotal in me drawing close to God but it also gave me a sense of identity as a child of God. As Paul writes in Ephesians 1:5 – “God predestined us to adoption as sons by Jesus Christ to Himself, in accordance with His pleasure & will”. This verse gave me a lot of assurance that even though I didn’t have anyone to call as a father, I sure had the Creator and the Sustainer of the entire universe whom I could call my Father and the Holy Spirit gives me that assurance in Romans 8:16 & Psalms 68:5 says that God is a Father to the fatherless. At a young age, I made peace with the fact that I am going to live my life without a father & It’s not that I was jealous because my friends had a father & I did not. A part of me always longed to have a father which was evident with what characterized who I was as an individual growing up & it was only after getting to know God more closely as a Father I was able to change & grow into who I am today.
It’s not that I didn’t have a family member to drop me to school on my first day, but having a father to tie my shoe laces would have surely felt different. It’s not that I didn’t have anyone to cheer me on during the sports days, but having a father lift me in the air when I won those races would’ve been different. It’s not that I didn’t have a mother who would be proud of my various academic accomplishments but having a father who’d treat me with an ice cream would have made success taste sweeter. It’s not that I didn’t have a friend to share about my heartbreaks but having a compassionate father with a listening ear would have felt different.
And finally, it’s not that I don’t have anyone on earth that loves me but knowing that I have a Father in God who loves me as His own child sure changes me as a person daily. The same Hands that formed & shaped the earth & placed everything where it belongs are the same Hands that are shaping me, moulding me & placing me in the perfect places at the appropriate moments in the various walks of my life.
For years of being without a father, ideally it wouldn’t be easy calling someone else as Father all of a sudden and of course through marriage I have gained an amazing father-in-law who I can call Dad, but that was only possible because of the way God the Father changed me and shaped me in the last few years. Some day in the future in God’s good time, when & if I become a father, I know I can look up to God for learning how a father should be like – compassionate, abounding in love, mighty, a safe place, slow to anger, kind hearted, reliable, forgiving, gracious and the list goes on. So that one day I can hopefully say like John does in 3 John 1:4 – “I have no greater joy than to hear that my children walk in truth.”